this shit hurts.

she doesn't even know how to spell my name correctly. i know this is gonna sound stupid but i was waiting for her text since last night. i slept with my phone on my side and woke up with no messages. she texted me in the evening and wish me for my birthday. last year she was the first one to wish me even tho we're not even together  i guess i'm fading away... ;/ ugh the fuck am i thinkin.... i gotta move on with my life.  babe i did tried to get you back. i keep tellin you how much i can't do all  this on my own and how much i needed you in life but all i get was nothing. nothing. i feel like a fool :( i sent you a letter tellin you why we should be together. i explained everything. asking for your apology 'cause i was young and fool back then. you replied with a lyrics from a song and tellin me that there's no more love for me. starting from that day i stopped all the text and letter. i know everything from me annoyed you. I pour my thoughts, my feeling and everything on my blogs 'cause i have nowhere else to turn to. i bet you'd be in tears if you saw it. 'cause its all about you, about us, about missing you. everything.. my heart still beats for you 'cause he know that someday we'll be together again. we don't know this. even i don't know this. but my heart keep tellin me something that worth waiting for. YOU. *finger crossed*

your happiness is all that will ever matter to me. i wish you could see how much irrevocably in love i am with you. you're my definition of perfection.

-jl-